danatheb (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} danatheb) wrote,@ 2008-03-29 09:07:00 |
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In around 1995, I went crabbing with Ang out in Captree. At the time, I had no idea of course that my life was going to change completely less than a year later (I moved to Connecticut and got married), and of course had no idea how Ang's story would play out . It was a nice day on the pier. Warm, sunny. We ate our sandwiches, got our feet wet, caught a few crabs. Completely unremarkable, it could have been any other of the thousands of times we'd done the self same thing over the previous 20 years, but for one thing:
I walked off to the food court to go to the bathroom, which took some time. When I rejoined our spot on the pier, Ang had struck up a conversation with the people next to us. His back was to me, and he didn't know I'd returned. He was saying "I'm here with my granddaughter Dana. Oh, we do everything together! I have three granddaughters, but Dana, she's my heart"
To this day, I am still absolutely unable to fully process that he's gone and that's it's been two years. Not a day passes I don't see something I'd like to share with him and I doubt that'll ever change.
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
